1.14.2010

I don;t know the FULL reason why. But atleast now i know some. Yeahh. i know it all along. But just, i choose to live in denial stage each time XD

yeahh yeahh! i know gerger always told me that!!

Looks like this time is the biggest risk I'm taking huh? I'm not gonna care about anything. Atleast when everything ends or whatsoever. I won't be crying again, thinking about what i COULD have done but did not do. This is the real YZANNE from the start isn't it? Brave, strong.. OK! the cheerful part got eaten up by -you- actually. I just can't make myself go away this time!

I wished in everyway i could find, of cause not going to say out my WISH yet. UNLESS it comes true. I don't know how long it's going to take seriously. I've never thought of being her replacement of cause. Even if i do, you won't. And I'm not her. But all I can do now, Is to TRY?

I wanna be there to laugh for you (at you also. LOL.). I wanna be there to cry with you. I wanna be there to feel what you feel. To care what u care about. To think what you're thinking. I know I'm a cry baby, through this plan of mine. I might cry and emo, But I'll go through it no matter what. I don;t need to be with you now. Just need you to be brave with me.

If only u tried to step on. I'll make sure I catch you this time and show you ONLY what is nice n beautiful in this "world". I don;t like you being alone cause i know you don't like it yrself.

OOH YAH! the "need a closer friend" sms. was part of the "forget me" plan i used on any other person. BUT, PLEASE DON'T ! ok. now i have to admit again. I wasn;t in the right state of mind. NOW i know I don't want you to leave!

Who told you you've hurt me? ok maybe just a bit cause i didn't know you'll rush things like this. But atleast... I know there're things u said and really meant it.

I have no idea how important she was. and is -.-"

But all that's alright. Since i'm the one who made u feel something you've not for such a long time. I thnk it's only fair for me to wait for my happiness to come to me. :)

MUSHY MUSHY I KNOW! -.-" If it's not for you i WON'T even be talking like this. Who ask you to be so dumb XD

Unless one day, you need me no more. Like me no more. Want me no more. I'm not gonna pass you to other people who will mayb eat you up. ><"

Of cause, i don;t wanna be a burden to you. So, If I'm told to leave... I really will.

*SHEN HUUUU XI~*

You're feelings are what makes me strong for now. It's all i have to know. Your company is all I need to have the sweetest dream. Leave the rest to me. I've told you how 'manly' i am! lol.

NOW LOOK PEOPLE! YZANNE IS GOING TO FIGHT FOR HIM. IF ANYTHING IS GOING TO HAPPEN TO ME. PLEASE REMIND ME WHAT I'VE BLOGGED TONIGHT !! EFFORT MUCH MUCH APPRICIATED!! THANKS ALOT PEOPLE!!

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