2.28.2010
Only a short time. And it's funny that i have been missing you quite alot? :X
Spending too much time tgt just isn't right for us now. (BUT I WANT! D:<) ok. so wrong~ But well. Yeah XD i know i know~ u didn't miss me. So busy miss simi!~ D:< ROAR DIE ME.
Hmmmms. Looking into my phone. actually i DO have quite some random photos of him eh? XD Thou we never did take picture tgt. But still, i guess that's enough.
The problem with guys, They forget about things which a girl thinks is important. Even if it's about the important person they love, They tend to be able to forget real fast! I guess this guy is just like normal other guys too. No matter how much I want to try to prove to myself and others that he is different. He appears to be still the same(well. mayb that's what he wants me to think....). But still, at this point, a normal girl would want to know what the guy really thinks. No matter good or bad, atleast the girl doesn't have to guess what the guy is feeling and thinking everytime. But, because of THE reason, He tend to start pushing away whenever we got closer. He doesn't understand that cherishing the time left, and being closer to him is what this stupid little girl is thinking.
Talking about having no confidence. Neither HE nor SHE has the confidence to know the outcome of this pushy r/s. SHE gave HIM her everything. Tried to let everyday be unforgetable. Tried to be more lady-like. Tried to understand him more. Tried to know him better. But HE continues pushing HER away.
SHE overcome her fear. Partly cause HE is the person whom SHE feels that is important.Thanks. She went back to medication, Trying her best to see a future. Maybe, If possible, Change the future a bit. She's brave to face the unconfirmed feelings. The feeling which she did not want to show. But when she finally did, all she got was being pushed away. HE can do whatever he wants. But atleast face HER bravely. Atleast let her know that it's worth the time waiting. He is not the perfect guy. Just some normal person who entered HER life randomly. But still, SHE loves HIM somehow.
Always pending for HIS sms. calls. anything that is related to him. Keeping every possible free time for him. Everything SHE ever think of is HIM and HER. Finally, She is going crazy. Think so much. Being so so sensitive. So easily jealoused.
After giving alot of time to think.
SHE came to a conclusion...
HE gets to live the way HE wants. Even if SHE isn't the one for HIM in the end. Atleast SHE gave in HER all. No regrets. If HE were to enjoy life in a way SHE will be unhappy, jealous, kept in the dark... Go ahead. SHE just wants HIM to be happy. It would of cause be happier for HER if HE were to know how much HE meant to HER.
Updated some rdm photos in facebook. :)
It hurts to dream about you.
Why didn't you want to talk to me? All you asked was if I did eat some pineapple tarts for you. YES I DID ! Talk to me! Tell me what I can do !
I will be burning away quite alot of items? Need time to pack and filter. :( Can't bare to do so, But for your sake. I guess I have no choice. <3
Labels: I am HER. HE is HIM.
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