Baby, Finally I realised. You're fine without me. Memory.
I fell for an idiot. He don't know how much he meant to me. He is like, 2 years younger than me. Not the kinda guy I would normally notice. But well, what to do? Celebrated his 18th birthday. I did enjoy everything. But his kisses was so cold. I can't help giving them my thoughts. Finally asked him about it. Looks like my intuition was right. His love towards me isn't THAT strong. (OUCH!)
After the 'baby' guy. This is a guy i did wanted to devote myself to. Too hurt, too scared. Don't dare to admit how i felt when we just got together. We broke up very shortly after that. Still remain as online couple somehow. Its a bit uneasy. Quarrels and all continued. I don't understand myself, why am I getting so worked over stupid little stuffs. But when I went to his FB, saw how he missed his ex, OUCH! ENOUGH! ==! 'hen qi guai ba'?
All my friends say no. But for all who knows me, I rather do everything i can, get all hurt and painful. Than to regret even the slightest bit in the future. I don;t know what else is there for me to do.
Remembering how u hugged me and told me u love me, heart melts but it hurts somehow. knowing that i don't mean as much to you as u meant to me. I swear this is the last time, I'm gonna chase after you. No matter the pain or whatever it takes. Till one day, when i finally get you, or get OVER you. It's yr call.
I never forget how painful it took in the past. I will prepare myself for how it will hurt this time. Yes, he isn't worth it, like all of you said. what to do?
I want to be in his skinny arms. Stupid comments and laughters. Random words and wishes. Though his stupid laughter nv once failed to make me smile just a bit. Cake cake~ :)
I'm never gonna forget whatever he promised me. But ermm, the part about finding someone to be with him, FORGET ABOUT IT PLS!
Haha. Fell for a childish kid. Someone so stupid, He don't even know how he manage to make me smile himself.
